i haf this feeling. a feeling i cant say. a feeling i wan so much to say. i wan so much to tell u. so much fer u to understand. but i cant. i cant say. this feeling makes me miserable. it makes me hurt inside. i wan so much fer it to go away. i need it to go away. i dun wanna feel this way.

last nite i dreamt dat i had to collect n remove worms n maggots in a certain timing. de dream was so real n vivid. i seemed to be collecting it de whole nite. got it checked up n this is wat it said:

To see maggots in your dream, represents your anxieties about death. It may also be indicative of some issue or problem that you have been rejecting and it is now "eating away" at you . You need to confront it for it is destroying your sense of harmony and balance.
In particular, to dream that you are stepping on maggots, indicates guilt and impurity. You are trying to repress your immoral thoughts or behavior . On a positive note, it may symbolize your resilience, persistence, and your ability to bounce back from adversity.

To see a worm in your dream, represents weakness and general negativity. You have a very low opinion of yourself or of someone in your life.
To dream that the worm is crawling on your body, indicates that you feel someone around you is taking advantage of your and feeding off your kind heartedness.

i did not step on it nor did it crawl up my body. actually i'm not sure if it did crawl up my body. hmm.. i noe dat this dream n its interpretation plus wats been going on this few days n de pic i've seen r more den enuff to drive me nuts.. haiz~

lol.. its been long since i last post but anyway happy 2007~ althou i'm 20 days late. hehe.

haf u eva felt de feeling of happiness? de feeling dat u r who u r.. de feeling dat u became a betta person. u've changed but u r still who u r n jus betta. living fer urself.

its him. its him i'm happy. its him i've changed. its him i'm who i am. its him i'm a betta person. its him.

its been a long time since i feel xin fu. but its different this time. i feel as if i've neva been so xin fu b4. *smiles*

i'm glad i've changed. i'm glad i've becomed a betta person. i'm glad i'm in love.

i wanna be wif u, ai ni hao xin fu.

i wanna be wif u, ai ni hao man zu.

i love u mr nyap! muackz!